October 2011
5 posts
Vanishing Act
How can something that was so real, just vanish into thin air like dust.
I did something super depressing today. Went ahead and read all the posts we sent each other on our blog, and reread all the posts that I posted on my xanga when we were going through our break up. And I only felt anger. ANGER for letting myself be treated the way I was, but I don’t regret anything. Because I gave...
I Realized...
that I’m terrified to delve into a new relationship thats more than surface with the opposite gender after my previous relationship.
It’s like, i grow this sense of disgust and then i feel like throwing up even thinking about the thought of getting close to another guy.
It kind of sucks, but this is a season of healing, a season where I can grow stronger in Him.
Just thought...
Life is so much larger.
Than what I want.
Than what I need.
Than what I am.
Life is seriously Love.
God is Love.
My heart goes out to all those who are less fortunate than I.
Not in a sense to brag that I have more or in any sense of entitlement at all.
But for those who are suffering, as I suffer as well.
We are all the same.
<3 people around you, find the greater meaning in life than just to complain.
September 2011
13 posts
Vintage
I really want to go vintage thrift shopping this weekend. one thing i miss about LA, is that it’s not as common up here. :/
BASKETBALL SEASON
waiting for it to friggen start!
but also wondering how I’m going to watch it… without cable…..
what a dilemma!
Your Beauty
God you are so wondrous in so many different ways.
My heart is willing, please break me. I want to get closer to you, learn more about your amazing love. I want to learn more about what your death on the cross means and how that applies to my life now.
You are so amazing in everything that you do, the way you move and send your holy spirit through people to bring them closer to you.
Lord, I...
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Mighty To Save: Hannahs Prayer (1 Samuel 2) →
mighty2save:
“My heart rejoices in the LORD; in the LORD my horn is lifted high. My mouth boasts over my enemies, for I delight in your deliverance.
2 “There is no one holy like the LORD; there is no one besides you; there is no Rock like our God.
3 “Do not keep talking so proudly or let…
I’m missing you~ You probably started school already, wish we were still together, me encouraging you that you’re going to succeed, you smiling back saying that you love me….
all just but silly wishes and instances that i’m making up in my head…
how did it become like this?~
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August 2011
5 posts
I would like to enjoy life…
Writing.
Furiously in my journal for the first time.. feeling accomplished and good :) Learning how to live life the way I want to…
“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you...”
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July 2011
1 post
May 2011
9 posts
June 2010
1 post
An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to...
Professor : You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you believe in GOD?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?
(Student was silent)
Professor : You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from?
Student : From...GOD...
Professor : That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil?
(Student did not answer)
Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who created them?
(Student had no answer)
Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe The World around you. Tell me, son...have you ever feen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor : Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.
Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn't...
(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)
Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat,
Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don't have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero
Which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.
(There was pin-drop dilence in the Lecture Theatre)
Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as
Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of
Something.
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light...
But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its
Called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is,
You would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue
There is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are
Viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and
Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that
Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life, just the Absence of it
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from
a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process,
yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the
argument was going)
Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at
work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The Class was in uproar)
Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the
Professor's brain?
(The Class broke out into laughter)
Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's
brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?...
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable
Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect,
sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?
(The Room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face
unfathomable)
Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir...Exactly!
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.
That student was ALBERT EINSTEIN.
Amazing.
April 2010
2 posts
Decisions.
I have been gone from church for a while… and my heart is slowly creeping. and growing more and more bitter. Today while i was showering, i broke. and i thought, i should read jeremiah, without even knowing the book in Living life was the book of Jeremiah. what is it? a coincidence that Living Life devotionals is in Jeremiah? i think not. God spoke to me. and revealed that i should start...
March 2010
5 posts
Today.
I cried in the car. Its been long since i’ve delved down into my heart to really seek Him. I need you more than ever right now. I’m so lost.
where do i go?
where am i supposed to go from here :( i dont know anymore. Singing Chris Tomlin’s song while tears were streaming down my face.
I’m so sorry….
February 2010
2 posts
Joshua Tabor Accused of Waterboarding Young... →
What kind of right grown man would make his daughter do such thing?
Ridiculous what people do these days.
i know my first post is about a depressing subject, but it was just so astonishing i had to tumblr it.